Sweets.

I have such a sweet-tooth, it's truly my demise. Yesterday I was doing fine and then my boyfriend invited me out to the movies. He picked out a bag of my favorite peanut butter m&ms and I could not resist! Luckily, even with the m&ms I didn't go over 800 calories. I'm so sad that the weekend is already almost over, but I'm kinda happy too because it's a lot easier to overeat when I'm always home. Hope everyone else had a successful, fun, relaxing weekend.

Breakfast
1 cup cheerios - 100
1/4 cup NF milk - 23
2 cups coffee w/stevia - 6
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Snack
green bell pepper - 24
1 tbsp. garlic hummus - 25
diet pepsi - 0

Lunch
turkey & feta sandwich on LF bread - 140

Snack
SF jello mousse cup - 60

Dinner
1 cup homemade chicken & broccoli soup - 80
LF toast - 45
1/2 tbsp. smart balance butter - 25
diet pepsi - 0

Desert
bottle of perrier - 0
bag of peanut butter m&ms - 240

Total: 798

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915.

I ate 915 calories yesterday because I freaked out. I was afraid my metabolism would go into "survival mode" and just hold onto everything I ate. I NEED to start working out again to keep this from happening because I feel incredibly disgusting and bloated now. Working out is so hard though. Not because I don't have the drive or desire to workout (trust me...I LOVE it!) but because on days that I work out I get so incredibly hungry and so very tired. Maybe if I make sure that I workout at night that would help? That way I can just have some water and go to bed.

Breakfast
1 cup cheerios - 100
1/4 cup NF milk - 23
2 cup coffee w/stevia- 6
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Lunch
turkey & feta sandwich on LF bread - 140
chai tea w/stevia - 0
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Snack
1/4 orange - 21
quaker oats minis - 90

Dinner
2 slices organic spinach pizza - 240
diet pepsi - 0

Desert
mini delight brownie - 150
2 tbsp. light whipped cream - 15
LF toast - 45
1/2 tbsp. smart balance butter - 25

Total: 915 calories

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You just gotta love her!

Resistance.

I weighed myself this morning and I'm back down to 118 lbs! Hooray for me :) It was that extra motivation I needed today, because every Friday morning my office fills the kitchen with free donuts and bagels with all of the fixings. So I sat at my desk, worked, drank my coffee, and watched people pass by with their plates of fatty-deliciousness. I did not give into temptation once! I even brought an apple in case I started losing it, and I didn't even have that...just coffee.
I spoke with my friends back in SoCal today and I have more reasons to be motivated to keep up with my regimen. First, my best friend and I are throwing a huge Welcome Home bash for me when I return. We're going to meet at my place and then go out to a show in L.A. Second, my girlfriend is having her birthday which will last two days. We are going to the clubs in L.A. and then we are going with a larger group to a local club in our hometown. I'm so excited!!!!!! I can't wait to go shopping for these events ;) Oh and I need to go shopping for new underwear because mine keep falling off! LOL.

Breakfast
1 cup cheerios - 100
1/4 cup NF milk - 23
2 cup coffee w/stevia - 0
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Snack
1/2 bag Quaker Oats minis - 45

Lunch
turkey & feta sandwich on LF bread - 140

Snack
green bell pepper - 24
1 tbsp. garlic hummus - 25
1/4 orange - 21
diet pepsi - 0

Dinner
3/4 cup organic black bean & vegetable soup - 100
LF toast - 45
1/2 tbsp. smart balance butter - 25
diet pepsi - 0

Desert
2 cups coffee w/stevia - 6
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Total: 614 calories

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Sleepy.

I have been soooo sleepy lately. I seriously have been sleeping on average 9 hours a night and when I don't I almost always take a nap. Oh well, sleeping is better than eating right? I don't have much to talk about today. So here's my intake and some thinspo.

Breakfast
1 cup cheerios - 100
1/4 cup NF milk - 23
2 cup coffee w/ stevia - 6
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Lunch
turkey & feta sandwich on LF bread - 140
diet pepsi - 0

Snack
1/2 apple - 34
2 cup coffee w/stevia - 6
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Dinner
1 cup organic black bean & vegetable soup - 130
LF toast - 45
1 tbsp. smart balance butter - 25

Desert
diet pepsi - 0
SF jello mousse - 60
2 tbsp. light whipped cream - 15
1/2 banana - 50

Total: 694

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Cold.

It's so cold today! I can feel it down to my bones. I can't wait to be home and back in So Cal. The first thing I'm going to do is head to the beach and get my tan on. I'm so excited! So yesterday I came really close to cheating. They were having the free pancake stack at IHop, and my girlfriend was BEGGING me to go with her at around 9:00 p.m. last night. I tried to think of every excuse to say no to her, because now when I say "I'm on a diet" people do not take me seriously. Luckily she was asked out to coffee by some guy so she completely dropped the whole pancake thing. It was sooo tempting though, but I felt much better once I came home had a jello pudding cup and went to bed.

Breakfast
1 cup cheerios - 100
1/4 cup NF milk - 23
2 cups coffee w/stevia - 6
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Snack
1/2 banana - 50

Lunch
slim fast shake - 190
chai tea w/splenda - 0

Snack
LF toast - 45
1/2 tbsp. garlic hummus - 13
1 can diet pepsi - 0

Dinner
grilled chicken breast - 100
1 tbsp. garlic hummus - 25

Desert
2 cups coffe w/stevia - 6
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30
quaker oats minis - 90
SF jello mousse - 60

Total: 768 calories

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Pains.

I hate/love stomach pains. I love when I can hear and feel them because that means I'm on the right track and sometimes if I let them persist for awhile my hunger just goes away. However, I hate when I get them in the middle of lecture...which is what happened to me today. I was so embarrassed because they were really loud, and of course I forgot my emergency snack at home for times like this. Ack. Oh well. I'm so tired today. It's cold and rainy, and I just want to crawl into bed and sleep the rest of the day away, but I have to go back to campus for an evening class. Maybe a nap until then?

Breakfast
1 cup cheerios - 100
1/2 cup NF milk - 45
2 cup coffee w/stevia - 6
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Lunch
3/4 cup black bean & vegetable soup - 100
LF toast - 45
1 tbsp. smart balance butter - 25
2 cup iced passion tea w/stevia - 0

Snack
1/4 apple - 23
1/2 orange - 40
can of diet pepsi - 0

Dinner
grilled apple, feta, chicken salad w/oil & vinegar ~ 144
LF toast - 45
1/2 tbsp. garlic hummus - 12

Desert
Two cups CF chai tea w/stevia - 0
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 25
mini delights brownie - 150
2 tbsp. light whipped cream - 15

Total: 805 calories

A little more than I wanted, but still a good effort.
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Better.

I did so much better yesterday and I am so proud of myself. I'm also doing pretty good today! I'm going home in a little more than three weeks and I'd like to lose a few more pounds by then. Last time I went home I was 118 lbs. and everyone was shocked. It was great. But this time I'm home for good, and I'm going to run into a lot more people I have not seen since I went to school two years ago. Two of them are exes. In addition, my dad is buying me a graduation present by paying for my little sis and I to stay at at hotel and go to Disneyland! Who wouldn't want to skinny and pretty at the Happiest Place on Earth? I have so many pictures from going there that I absolutely hate because I'm so flippin' fat, so I'm hoping to get some cute pictures of my sister and I while we are there.

Breakfast
1 cup cheerios - 100
1/2 cup non-fat milk - 45
2 cup coffee w/stevia - 4
2 tbsp. SF creamer - 30

Lunch
3/4 cup chicken stirfry (chicken, broccoli, onion, terriyaki sauce) ~ 75
2 cups iced passion tea w/stevia ~ 0

Snack
10 snap peas - 14
2 tbsp. garlic hummus - 50

Dinner
3/4 cup organic black bean & veggie soup - 100
light toast - 45
1 tbsp. smart balance butter - 25

Desert
smart balance popcorn - 100
sugar-free jello mousse - 60
diet pepsi - 0

Total = 648 calories

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Continuing.

I LOVE:
- feeling weak and lightheaded
- having a sense of control
- knowing I'm skinnier and prettier than her
- waking up and feeling empty
- not fitting into my clothes
- not wearing any clothes!
- making an entrance
- getting dolled up in the bathroom
- driving him crazy
- being THIN.
I'm so happy to be back in the swing of things. I'm starting to feel better, but not quite enough to work out again. I've been eating a little more than I would want to, but that should change after today because I went to the grocery store and filled up on veggies, fruits, diet soda, and some hummus (yum!). I loved it when I came home from the store with my bags of healthy food, and I see my awful/mean/inconsiderate/fat roommate sitting on the couch pounding down beer and mexican food. HAHA! She's the biggest binge eater I've ever seen. I know I sound like I'm ragging on her a lot...but if you only knew. She is so mean to me. But I guess it makes it all the better when we compete against each other to lose weight.

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Ew.

So yesterday was a total suckfest. First I was uber sick for like the hundredth time, and so I consumed more calories than I normally would have wanted just to ensure that my immune systems gets up and running again. On top of that I have been studying like crazy, and I always over-eat while studying. I'll usually buy decent snacky-crunchy foods like carrots, snap peas and lettuce, but just my luck, all of my veggies went bad because my roommate left the fridge open again!!! Ack. So I ended up snacking on cereal and toast...great. But today will be better! I'm going to rock my midterms, eat better and drink lots of water.

May today be better than yesterday.

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Sick.

One downside to losing a lot of weight really fast...your immune system gets shot. That's what has happened to me. I've been sick almost four times since last month, and it's caused me to miss a lot of school. What a shame. I have two midterms tomorrow and I'm totally bugging. Whenever I'm sick I always drink lots of tea, take a bubble bath and watch a disney movie. I always feel better after that. I just made a huge batch of iced passion tea and I have some chai bags for a little caffeine boost. I usually have coffee in the morning, but whenever I'm sick the last thing I want to drink is coffee. Hopefully I will be feeling better in time for my midterms tomorrow and I can spend today re-cooperating and studying.

Beginning.

There is always a beginning and an end...this is the beginning. What to do? What to do? I suppose I will start by talking about myself. I'm 22, a soon-to-be college graduate, a dreamer, a lover, and someone who has always wanted to be "pretty." I've done everything I can to achieve that adjective, and now I live it everyday. I recently lost 20 pounds with hardwork and the help of intense thinspiration. I know how frustrating it is to find thinspiration out there, and I am here to help provide it. In addition I will also be sharing my continuing struggles with diet and weight loss along with other things I feel belong in my "pretty blog" such as fashion and decor. So to start things off here's a bit of "Pretty Thinspiration."