Well, hello there.

So I didn't post yesterday because my internet was up and down. My best friend and I decided to ditch the girls at the fair because some lame concert was going on and we knew it was going to be packed. We are both very insecure about our appearances and we tend to diet together a lot. However, she's one of the main people in my life who's opposed to my restrictive eating habits. Mainly because she's about 60 lbs heavier than me, but what can you do? We decide to blaze and chill that night instead. We got my favorite sandwiches and split a cookie and I was so proud of myself that I did not pig out! Sure the sandwich and the cookie were pretty bad but I usually end nights where I get high at around 2,000 - 3,000 calories and that night I only ended at about 1,000. I felt so good about myself the next day.
Yesterday was a pretty good day too. My little sister and I had nothing to do last night so we decided to go to the movies. I got a little dressed up and actually looked at myself. "Well, hello there." I looked...okay. Not nearly as good as I used to look but good enough to dress up in something other than a sweatshirt and a flowy top. I was even hit on a couple of times at the theater! That was a surprise.

Okay, it's Friday! I can't wait for today to be over.

Calories: +782
Exercise: -263 (stretching, elliptical)

love, pretty, thin.

Courage.

So I've seen 117 on the scale two days in a row now but I haven't the courage to change my stats. I think I'm afraid this weekend is going to catch up with me or something. Maybe I'll wait another day. I just always think my scale is lying to me. Well, I did better yesterday...not at all great, but better. It's really hard to avoid over-eating when you have papers and finals to work on. I just crave sugar and salt so bad on those days, and would much rather rummage through my kitchen than continue working. Le sigh. I just need to get through this next week and a half and them I am DONE!

Breakfast
1 cup cheerios - 100
1/4 cup NF milk - 23
2 cup coffee - 6
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Snack
small banana - 72

Lunch
egg white spinach & feta omlette - 94
LF toast - 45
1/2 tbsp. smart balance butter - 25
diet pepsi - 0

Snack
SF jello mousse cup - 60
7 almonds - 49

Dinner
WW english muffin - 120
1/2 tbsp. smart balance butter - 25
1/8 cup RF feta - 25

Desert
WW english muffin - 120
1/2 tbsp. smart balance butter - 25
sprinkle of stevia & cinnamon - 0
2 cup coffee w/stevia - 6
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Total: 855 calories

Love
Pretty
Thin

915.

I ate 915 calories yesterday because I freaked out. I was afraid my metabolism would go into "survival mode" and just hold onto everything I ate. I NEED to start working out again to keep this from happening because I feel incredibly disgusting and bloated now. Working out is so hard though. Not because I don't have the drive or desire to workout (trust me...I LOVE it!) but because on days that I work out I get so incredibly hungry and so very tired. Maybe if I make sure that I workout at night that would help? That way I can just have some water and go to bed.

Breakfast
1 cup cheerios - 100
1/4 cup NF milk - 23
2 cup coffee w/stevia- 6
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Lunch
turkey & feta sandwich on LF bread - 140
chai tea w/stevia - 0
2 tbsp. SF vanilla creamer - 30

Snack
1/4 orange - 21
quaker oats minis - 90

Dinner
2 slices organic spinach pizza - 240
diet pepsi - 0

Desert
mini delight brownie - 150
2 tbsp. light whipped cream - 15
LF toast - 45
1/2 tbsp. smart balance butter - 25

Total: 915 calories

Love
Pretty
Thin

You just gotta love her!